(Prompt: Whenever you wake up from a dream, it destroys an entire alternate universe within your head. Describe the brief life of a person living in a dream.)
It's strange.
It's strange.
We have voices, I know that. I've heard the others calling out to Him. We speak the same language - at least most of us. I can always understand them. Even I have caught myself beckoning Him before. I don't know why, but somehow it seems the thing to do. Like asking why you breathe or think or swallow your spit or scratch your neck. You just do. So why, then, have we never talked to each other?
I've never seen them. I don't know where they are and I don't know where they go. Where I am, where I go. It's so easy to count myself apart, but I seem to operate by the same faculties as them.
There are gaps. There seems to be an almost predictable cycle to our existence, whatever that may consist of. I find myself here, waiting next to this door every cycle. Something in me urges me to wail to what I'm sure is our master: The Decider, the Chooser, the Brain. He is the one who delivers us. I try to resist, but often I blow out my lungs vying to be called. This goes on for what feels a short amount of time, but then I blink. And when I open my eyes again, I know the process has started over. Every time the same.
Shout, eyes close, eyes open, shout, eyes close, eyes open, shout, eyes close, eyes open shout, eyes close, eyes open shout, eyes close,
Eyes open: I hear a low din on the other side of the door - something I know to be music. I've never heard this before. I make to approach the door but find myself unable to move. I've never felt this before. I wait. Beg my eyes to see something I haven't seen before, but it's the same door, same dim light, same dirty window, same unending black casting itself over everything, or nothing, else. I wait.
The music stops. The unmistakable sound of breaking glass. Tables legs scratch at the floor. A monstrous roar.
I don't understand, but the roar undoubtedly came from my own self. I attempt to move again and stumble forward when I find I'm able. I hit the door and it swings forward. A sea of eyes and noses and mouths all focus on me. They are multi-colored and stuck together with little care. Some of them are humanoid and horribly distorted; their skin drips and stretches, eyes bulging and melting at the same time. Others have forty legs and seventy eyes with pincers and sharp teeth; some with tentacles and horns and mouths too big for what serves as a face; and more yet with patches of fur, massive arms, and so many wings. And there are more besides.
They are all laughing.
Towards the center of the room I see a man. He is hardly five feet small and seems to shrink as I approach him. With the light now behind me, my shadow begins to cast over him. I had never considered my own form, but faced with the evidence, I am forced to conclude I am vile. I am huge - so much larger than I had ever imagined - and there are many pronged antlers protruding from a very blockish head. I seem to have some sort of snout, though it's hard for me to be sure. I have at least three arms on either side of my scaled body, and the bulkiest legs I've ever set eyes on. My, do I have a lot of eyes.
I'm compelled to continue my approach. The shaking, desperate man seems to sense me, or perhaps has noticed that my shade has overtaken him. He swivels and faces me. His face turns to horror and his jaw nearly unhinges as he makes to howl his fear. No sound escapes his maw.
I advance on the still shrinking man. My arms are rising and there is steam - real, hot steam - pouring from my nostrils. I am filling with rage and fury. He is filling with dread and panic. He turns about again to run from me as I close the gap between us. He plants one foot in front of the other, his body shakes and sweats as he delivers everything he has to rid himself of me.
He hardly moves. I might think that I am somehow moving infinitely faster than him, but all the creatures like me who surround him move in time with me. He is slow. It's like watching a man wade through invisible custard.
I raise many of my hands to the air and swoop upon him. Even I am unclear of my intention. Eyes shut tight as my fist connects.
Eyes open. I am standing outside the door with the light and the dirty window. I shout to Him. I hope He selects me.
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